Well I’m back…again haha. So I have this great topic that hit me hard today about being a case manager and my future prospect of being a counselor. Being objective without bring a robot. Lot harder than it sounds.
So let me set the stage. Yesterday, Wednesday, I did a CANS (child/adolescent needs and strengths) assessment on a client. This youth when first presented had issues controlling anger, making both suicidal and homicidal statements, and was very dominating over the guardians. That was probably a year ago. Fast forward to today and two hospitalizations later, all is going well. No issues at home, some tiffs with school still, and was just told that the client stopped using synthetic marijuana recently. Awesome! And here’s the “but.” But, I get a call today that the youth is going to the PD for having lots of baggies of synthetic in possession. My thoughts are there was intent to sell. Well hell…
I realize this is part of the recovery process for substance abuse. A client can go through the stages of precontemplation, contemplation, preparation, action, and maintenance. All through this there is the possibility of relapse.
I know this! I know the stages, the characteristics, what’s involved. Heck I know some on how to engage a client differently and appropriately in each stage. This is not even my first go around with clients encountering relapse. But hell, for some reason this has hit me hard.
I want to be objective and think about this rationally. We are told to find that balance of Kirk and Spock in order to be effective counselors. I realize I need to retreat into my Spockiness so I do not encounter burnout from the stress. All this I know! Doing is so much harder.
Retreating, heck I hate just thinking about that word in regards to a clients progress and my mental capacity. Feelings of failure surface even though Spock is looking over my shoulder and saying, “Josh, you can never truly control another being without destroying said being. You must learn to let go, use this as a learning moment for both you and your client.” Kirk is over here trying to tell Spock off and not admitting defeat. Not wanting to be a heartless computer like him. Will I grow into that? I always struggle with that notion of being able to balance those boundaries and keep sane.
Bah, I’m talking about Kirk and Spock fighting on my shoulders even though I like Picard and Data so much more. Have I already cracked?